Its been almost 5 months since Momma has gone to Heaven and it has been hard. Its gonna get worse before it gets better. It was so hard for me to celebrate my birthday without momma being there to help me blow out my candles or wish me a happy bithday. I know that she would have wanted me to have a good birthday. Daddy did a wonderful job with my birthday. Im glad that momma married such a good dad. I think of her so much and I think " What if....she would still be here". I was confused at first and im still alittle confused. I understand that she was sick and she was in pain but why couldn't GOD just have made her better and let her stay here? I ask that question in my head everyday. I miss momma so much and I hope we get to see eachother again. Everyone says that they understand but they don't. Im just gonna try to keep hanging in there. Momma is a beautiful and wonderful angel now. My Aunt got me a locket for my bithday and it has mommas picture in it so evertime im in a rough situation or I start to think about her I just hold on tight to that locket. I feel weird when I don't have it on. I see momma almost every Sunday and I talk to her alot. Sometimes I feel bad for having a good time but I know that she wants us to move on and have a good time. Rest in peace momma. I love you. +